ABOVE: IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE.

PAUL AND BECKY ALLEN

ME AND BECKY ACTING NERDY.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPS.

Merry Christmas ho ho ho Just wanted to update my life a little. It is December 23 today. I had my friends Becky and Paul overnight last night. We had a fun, but quick visit. Paul is the guy who fell 20 feet from his tree in August. He is doing so much better but still has a blood clot in his leg. Please keep him in your prayers for that to go away. And for Becky. She needs prayer too. She has been through soooo much crap and ill health in her life. Many burdens on her right now. I love her and I ask anyone to pray for her. She is cool and awesome and fun. She has 15 tattoos and I have 14. We are like kindred souls.
Next... This will be my first Christmas...alone. I am ok with it. I will be busy Christmas eve at church so that will be my Christmas. I keep wishin I was in IL, opening presents with Brock, Molly and Mike. Like I was last year. I sent a few presents to family. The money is not there like when I had Bob to help. But I do what I can. I applied for 'Leap', for help with heating this drafty house, but was denied. So, I will do the best I can every month. Christmas is about Jesus. Honoring 'His' Birthday. Not buying everyone gifts. I hope everyone understands. I really want to go to IL in July to help Molly and Mike with the new baby. I will be on unemployment, so money will be even tighter. I pray I get tax money from the government. It is really hard not having Bob to lean on with money stuff. He now makes real money and is now with 'someone new'. It is hard to for me to swallow that, thinking we would be together forever, but life changes right? I want to thank all my family and friends who care so big about me. I love you!!!!! I couldn't do it without you and God! Everybody has something in their life that is a bump in their life. So I know I am not alone. I am blessed to have what I have at this point in my life. A job, a home, and insurance, and friends and family. I make under $12,000 a year, but God provides. I love the kids I teach. I am so blessed. The other day little Hayley says as we pass a herd of DEER, "Look at the Momma deers laying down, they're laying eggs!" It was so cute. . Kids are great!!! So that is about all for now. Have a wonderful, fresh 2010!!! Love and hugs from me....Gail

CHEYENNE MOUNTAIN ZOO. COLORADO SPRINGS

Went to the zoo today. It was 47 degrees. How fun. I walked alone and had fun. I love giraffes. So quiet, and tall and have the most beautiful eyelashes. I wasn't there a long time. They didn't have the paths shoveled so it was slick. I didn't want to fall. I saw the gorillas, Primates, hippos, birds, and not many people. I had the Zoo to myself. What fun. Just wanted to share these pictures. And if you remember, I am in the Giraffe class at work. :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS...YEA

My sweet, real Christmas tree. 2009

Here it is December 11. I hate my life right now. I am sad. Very weepy. I know I have a lot I am thankful for. I am. But I just feel so alone. I love Colorado. I can't live back in IL where all my family is. It is just too fast paced for me. Here, it is slower and I feel people try to absorb the mountain beauty and love it. I for the most part love the Colorado weather. It is most of the time liveable. Lately it has been so cold. All I can think about it the gas bill for January. I have a job. I am so glad I have a job. I love my job. But life is just too hard sometimes. $$$ is evil. When Bob and I were married, it was all easier. He made good money at the Power Plants and he paid for us. It was nice. I paid for a things in our marriage but now, since the divorce, I have to pay for everything. Alimony pays for rent. But that will run out someday. Then what? I am not healthy enough to have two jobs. My stupid arthritis kills me. I am 52 now. More than half way to 100. Crap. I am so sad. I think of others who don't have a job, or who have bad health problems, or who have even less than me. I feel blessed. But I hate being alone. But I also like being alone. So what do I like? I miss hugs and emotional support, and kissing, and cuddling. I have guys I see once in a while, but they aren't 'there' for me. And 3 of them are married! Or far away. Stupid men.

Have I wasted my life? Have I done everything I wanted to do? NO. But lack of money makes lifeso rough. I wish I made a better living. I know Molly would say, "You get what you put into life." Yes that is right. All I ever wanted to be was a wife and mother. Not a provider. I love working with kids. They are so funny. I love teaching them new things. To write their name, to count, to show them something new, how to hold scissors, how to know the alphabet. How the sounds, sound of different letters. It is a blast.

I don't want to sit here and feel sorry for myself. I am also starting the "change of life." Mother Nature YOU SUCK!!!!! My hormones are so jacked up. I cry, I smile, I weep, I laugh. AAAGGHHHHHH.

I love my Christmas tree. I love that Christmas means we celebrate the birth of our Jesus. But it is also, buy, buy, buy. Out-do your friends. Who gives the most or the best. Forget it. I hate Christmas. Buy all you can for your kids. WHY? I can't wait til January first. Ok, Before I blow up I am going to put on my pajamas, and climb into bed and watch TV, and listen to the furnance turn on and turn off, and turn on and turn off. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.

I love my life, I hate my life. I miss my family, I wish I had money. I love my church, I love my friends. I miss my Brock. Waa Waa Waa. I better call the Wambulance. Peace.

ORANGE IS COOL

THIS IS MY FRIEND MELISSA'S HORSE HONEY.

here is the new blog address....

These people are passing out pop cicles

Can you see Bubbles?

My friend's babies foot. I love babies feet.

Fall in Colorado so far.

awesome

Sunday, September 20, 2009
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